Less Later

I've already 'fessed up numerous times about being a procrastinator. Probably more than you like or need to read about. However, I'm guessing I'm not the only one (did a song just run through your head?) I digress. WHICH is probably a LOT of my problem(s)?!?!?!? There are times my mind feels like a hamster wheel. Spinning. and spinning. Getting nowhere.

New Year/January always seems to be worse for me. I think it is because I am more aware that I thought some things would be different by now. Honestly, they are. Change just comes so slowly sometimes that it is hard to notice when you're in it everyday. While change seems slow, days seem to fly by. It's already almost the middle of January. I have been in accounting and payroll for many years now so I think that plays a factor too. There is much to be done at work and always, seemingly, at home.

In both places, home and work, I've been trying to make myself follow the "touch it once and be done" rule. Trying would be a key word in that sentence. This means, especially in regards to my nemesis of paper, get it, take care of it and be done (meaning file DON'T pile). If you have been to my office or my house, you would know that this is a real struggle for me. I like to collect quotes and little tidbits of info that others may or may not appreciate. I think I'll find a use for something LATER (see where this is heading?) so I hold on to it which leads to piles.

I even catch myself often saying I'll take care of/do that LATER. (insert maniacal scream here) WHEN exactly IS later?

So. I know what I need to do. I need to do it. NOW. Quite honestly, we are not promised later. Maybe that will become my motivation. As Scarlet O'Hara says at the end of Gone With the Wind, "tomorrow is another day." It is. Today is another day too. The tomorrow I thought about yesterday. My later. Your later. Want to join me on less laters? More nows?

Matthew 6:34 (NIV) Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Proverbs 27:1 (NIV) Do not boast about tomorrow, for you do not know what a day may bring.

A Different New Year

A Different New Year

We started the year with you here

Now it's been months with you gone.

The days go so slow, but already a new year will begin.

I pick up the phone to call you a few times a week

I still haven't erased your number from my phone

It hurts to not get calls from you or hugs or I love yous

It hurts because you were loved

We drive past the cemetery

We stop when we can

Even though it's just a slab in the ground

It helps to be near you

To think of you

We look at pictures

Of you

With us

We smile through tears

As we remember

I've learned some things to start this New Year

Not resolutions, they don't seem to last.

Patience.

Not to take people or the time

they so willingly share for granted.

To smile more.

To hug more.

To say I love you MORE.

TODAY when possible not put off for tomorrow

because tomorrow become todays and yesterdays.

Yesterdays are what we remember

But we will continue to live in today

So we'll start our different new year

Like a new chapter in an ongoing book

Characters will come and love and leave

This is not The End...

kl 12-31-15